The Diary of a Love-struck

For many days, I have been thinking of a real topic on which I could write my heart out. And here's what I got from a diary of a love-struck-girl. I know it is a bad thing reading someone's personal diary but I accidentally stumbled across her diary and got a good experience on love, from her eyes.

The remarkable things were, the way she wrote it. The diary didn't carry anything on her daily routine. There was nothing about their conversation but this time it was little different. She took small small instances which made her feel really special about that moments or which made her feel guilty on that situations or the moments where she cried her eyes out. The way she expressed her feeling for every moment made me live those moments in her words. I get caught in her words. The words were so real that if I was there that time, I would have felt the same.

Some of the moments I would like to share which I read in her diary.

Something Direct From Heart 

There are many things you learn when you fall in love. You learn to share yourself  with someone who was just  a stranger until yesterday, you believe in love, you learn to love ; you learn to give love and receive it in return. Being loved is a very big thing. It gives you sheer happiness. A hope or a surety that, Yes, you have someone to count on in this mean world. Someone you can call yours. That "I love you too" text makes your day. Love makes you responsible, loyal, dedicated, honest, caring....it makes you an able person and most importantly it makes you a loving person. You have someone to hold you, and hold you until they can! And if they cannot they will be with you in any condition. Remembering small small things about the person you love is also kind of sweet and when they remember things about you, it makes you extremely satisfied. Love makes you feel you are safe in someone's arms. It makes you a better person. That's what love is. A very small word but when comes into your life teaches you many big things.



And the day I just wanted to hate him From The Core of my Heart :'(


"I am on leave. So, I would request you if I can stay in peace for some days."

Am I someone who is creating chaos in his life and destroying his peace?? Do my talks irritate him and bore him to death?? Do I always blame or complains??

 I didn't sleep the whole night. These thoughts were wandering in my mind. I was feeling suffocated, these questions were suffocating me to death. 

After all this, one thought which was constantly disturbing me was, " Do I deserve this kind of behavior ?" Of all that love I do, I get to hear is I didn't let him stay in peace. This message from him is captive in my mind from the time he sent it and I can't let it go. It is hurting me, my head is aching since morning, I am feeling restless, I am feeling tired now and the misery is not going.
Maybe I am over-thinking. Maybe I am someone to blame here. I am just feeling like a loser.

I love him, I love him a lot. And because of all this, we are just losing the happy days in our life, which we will regret later. Like this, I can't stay. I am just losing my charm to live life. I am losing myself.

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Ummm....! So isn't it the same feeling we get when we are in such situations ?? In love, every girl thinks from her heart. And they are kind of very emotional and sensitive to every bullshit. So, the post is dedicated to every lover who is reading this. :)


REMEMBER THIS :-

"When you get a little love, you want more.

And when you don't, the little love was very much."

P.S :- Love is not really as complicated as people make it. In fact, it's not complicated at all. Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it.